I already told you everything? There wasn't really much to it, I was just... [He shrugs, waving a hand vaguely at the journal] Aranea was suddenly a child, even though I'd just been talking to her and she was fine before. I was kind of... unsettled by it, and sort of... yelled that I was her boyfriend. And then Herbert found it, and I just.

Sort of wished I was dead? I didn't mean it, of course, it was just one of those stupid thoughts you get when you're stressed, right? But then it was like - Bam! [he snaps his fingers] I was dead and kind of staring at my body, wondering what happened.