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[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

tHE LIZARDS, aRE GONE AND i REALLY MISS THEM RIGHT NOW, bECAUSE THEY WERE REALLY FUN TO TALK TO,
aND THEY WERE REALLY GOOD LISTENERS, aND NOW i HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO,
tHAT WON'T JUDGE ME, aND i REALLY COULD, uH, uSE A LIZARD RIGHT NOW,
bECAUSE NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME, lIKE THEM,

wHY DID THEY HAVE TO GO,

aLSO WHY DO, bAD THINGS LIKE TO, uHHH, hAPPEN TO ME SO MUCH,

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[selfhatred]

UH. HEY.
ANYTHING YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT, BRO?

[Wow, way to go, Vantas.]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

uM,
nOT PARTICULARLY ALL THAT MUCH, wITH YOU, nO,

uHHH, i MEAN BECAUSE YOU AREN'T A LIZARD,

[ALSO BECAUSE OF REASONS.]

[selfhatred]

[And private, because you're going to talk about this, bitch.]

LOOK, I'M SORRY.
I DIDN'T KNOW YOU LIKED HER TOO.
WHEN ERIDAN TOLD ME HE WAS PUTTING THE MOVES ON HER I PANICKED.
I DIDN'T THINK ABOUT ANYONE ELSE'S FEELINGS.

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

uHHH, i DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN, kARKAT,
i DON'T LIKE ANYONE,
eR, i MEAN, iN THE ROMANTIC SENSE,
aLSO SINCE WHEN DOES ERIDAN LIKE JADE, tOO,

[selfhatred]

WHATEVER YOU WANT TO BELIEVE.
BUT I DIDN'T MEAN TO HURT ANY FEELINGS THAT MIGHT BE PRESENT.
WHAT REASON DOES ERIDAN NEED TO FLIRT WITH SOMEONE?

oh also this has been private for the last few replies so [PRIVATE]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

tHERE ARE NO FEELINGS PRESENT,
yOU KNOW WHAT i MEAN, bY THAT, uNLESS i HAVE TO, uM, aCTUALLY EXPLAIN MYSELF, bECAUSE i DON'T WANT THERE TO BE, aNY CONFUSION,

aND i DON'T KNOW, eRIDAN HAS NEVER, uM, fLIRTED WITH ME,,,

[selfhatred]

NO, IT'S OKAY.
I JUST MADE THE ASSUMPTION SINCE I SAW YOUR INK COLOUR IN HER JOURNAL, BUT YOU DIDN'T ACTUALLY WRITE ANYTHING.

BE GRATEFUL. IT'S FUCKING CREEPY AS SHIT.

[lookupforme]

You should close your eyes, and put your ear to the floor. Pretend the echoes you hear are the gecko's crawling across the floor boards.

[private]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

yOU SAW WHAT,

[private]

[selfhatred]

YOUR INK COLOUR.

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

oH, i NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT,,,
bUT IT'S NOT THE SAME AS, uM, tHEM STILL BEING HERE, bUT,
i THINK i WILL DO THAT, bECAUSE i REALLY MISS THEM,

[tellsthestories]

Tavros, you poor dear. You can talk to people that aren't lizards!

I'll gladly listen to you.

[private]

[selfhatred]

[After seeing this]

YOU NEED INK REMOVER FOR THAT SHIT.

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

i DON'T KNOW, iF YOU WOULD REALLY WANT TO HEAR ABOUT, uM, aNYTHING i HAVE TO SAY,
iT'S ONLY THINGS THE, lIZARDS REALLY UNDERSTOOD,
nO OFFENSE INTENDED, i MEAN,
bUT NO ONE REALLY GETS IT EXCEPT THEM, i THINK,

[tellsthestories]

Well, you certainly don't have to talk to me, but unless you're secretly a reptile, I doubt the lizards can understand you better than your classmates.

It's not like they're dogs, after all.

[private]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

i DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT,
uHHH, i DIDN'T SEE OR DO ANYTHING,
wITH MY INK,

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

bUT THE LIZARDS LISTENED, uM, tO EVERYTHING i SAID, aND WERE VERY NICE,
i THINK THEY DID KNOW, wHAT i WAS SAYING,

[private]

[selfhatred]

TAVROS?
DEEP BREATHS.

[private]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

nO, i DON'T THINK YOU'RE THE RIGHT, pERSON TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO,
nOT TO BE MEAN OR ANYTHING, aND IN A COMPLETELY UNMEAN KIND OF WAY,
i DON'T THINK i WANT TO LISTEN, sO MAYBE i JUST WON'T BREATHE,

[tellsthestories]

I think so, too! I didn't mean to discredit the lizards' intelligence. I think animals are very smart.

I'm just not sure how much lizards know about people.

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

oH WELL, mAYBE YOU'RE RIGHT i GUESS, bUT i TOLD THE LIZARDS SO MUCH,
aND i DON'T THINK i COULD,
uH, tELL ANYONE ELSE,

[private]

[selfhatred]

OKAY.
I GET WHEN I'M NOT WANTED.
I JUST WANTED TO APOLOGIZE AND I ALREADY DID THAT SO I'LL GO NOW.
ALSO? YOU CAN'T KILL YOURSELF BY HOLDING YOUR BREATH, IDIOT.
I'M OUT.

[tellsthestories]

I am sorry, then, Tavros.

[private]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

wAIT NO, kARKAT i DIDN'T MEAN TO, iMPLY THAT YOU WEREN'T WANTED,
uHH, i'M SORRY FOR BEING, rUDE

i DON'T KNOW WHY THAT HAPPENED,,

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

yOU SOUND SAD,
uM, i MEAN i KNOW YOU CAN'T REALLY, tELL IN WRITING,
bUT YOUR TEXT LOOKS SAD, i'M SORRY FOR MAKING YOU SAD,