I don't know anymore. There's just stuff going on and I don't know what to think of it. In a way I appreciate it but at the same time, it doesn't make much of a difference. Because he might say that I'm like a son to him but it doesn't change the fact that I'm not. The only one he has is Dave.
And. I know that might not make sense to you out of context and I apologise for that. I just want to make my dad proud and Uncle Dirk proud. But I always feel conflicted and so much like a waste of space sometimes it just seems inevitable that I'll end up failing.
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There's just stuff going on and I don't know what to think of it. In a way I appreciate it but at the same time, it doesn't make much of a difference.
Because he might say that I'm like a son to him but it doesn't change the fact that I'm not. The only one he has is Dave.
And. I know that might not make sense to you out of context and I apologise for that.
I just want to make my dad proud and Uncle Dirk proud. But I always feel conflicted and so much like a waste of space sometimes it just seems inevitable that I'll end up failing.