[No. No everything wouldn't be fine. Or at least that's what it felt like for Bro. Because now that he's crying, he just can't stop. And it's not even just specifically for what recently happened. It's pent up feelings he's had for a long time, even before David came back briefly. Because he's been repressing them for months now, just to be strong for Dirk. It had become easier and easier to do that. To focus on making sure Dirk was okay. He hadn't really gotten over it himself. Just... repressed everything.
And it was all coming out now and he just felt absolutely miserable. Even Murdoc's presence was starting to not help anymore, now that he he'd finally broken down. Not that he wasn't grateful for it, because he was. But... he felt stupid. A part of him that was still even remotely rational was telling himself that he was stupid. That he was just embarrassing himself and that he shouldn't be clinging to Murdoc so tightly. Crying into his thigh. It was stupid and he was stupid and he should just stop.
It's with that in mind that he finally tears himself away from Murdoc. He rolls over and faces away from Murdoc, eyes locked on the opposite wall. He curls up on himself, shaking. Already he feels a sense of loss and loneliness now that he isn't clinging to Murdoc, but he's convinced himself it's for the best. Because Murdoc doesn't need to deal with this shit. He doesn't need to deal with Bro being a complete and total dumbass baby.
He manages to choke out a few words, his voice shaky and broken.]
S-Sorry... just...You can g-go.
[He felt absolutely stupid for calling Murdoc over in the first place. He hadn't intended to break down like this but it had happened and now he couldn't stop. It was better to just... be alone. That was Murdoc wouldn't see him like this. Not that he could ever recover his dignity. That was gone and he didn't think he would ever manage to get it back.]
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And it was all coming out now and he just felt absolutely miserable. Even Murdoc's presence was starting to not help anymore, now that he he'd finally broken down. Not that he wasn't grateful for it, because he was. But... he felt stupid. A part of him that was still even remotely rational was telling himself that he was stupid. That he was just embarrassing himself and that he shouldn't be clinging to Murdoc so tightly. Crying into his thigh. It was stupid and he was stupid and he should just stop.
It's with that in mind that he finally tears himself away from Murdoc. He rolls over and faces away from Murdoc, eyes locked on the opposite wall. He curls up on himself, shaking. Already he feels a sense of loss and loneliness now that he isn't clinging to Murdoc, but he's convinced himself it's for the best. Because Murdoc doesn't need to deal with this shit. He doesn't need to deal with Bro being a complete and total dumbass baby.
He manages to choke out a few words, his voice shaky and broken.]
S-Sorry... just...You can g-go.
[He felt absolutely stupid for calling Murdoc over in the first place. He hadn't intended to break down like this but it had happened and now he couldn't stop. It was better to just... be alone. That was Murdoc wouldn't see him like this. Not that he could ever recover his dignity. That was gone and he didn't think he would ever manage to get it back.]