sortinghat_rp | ♏ 007

Congratulations, Slytherin. I was almost worried you all would fail miserably with points and we'd be losing right now.

Let's just hope you can keep this up.

Speaking of losing, the teacher match is getting closer with each passing day. I'm sure you're all terribly excited to watch your teachers fail miserably, but who knows, maybe we'll actually do quite well. Perhaps a practice session would be beneficial?

I also want to take this moment to talk about something personal to me. I know I'm late with this announcement, but I can't have my fiancé receiving all of the attentions and congratulations. As most of you should know by know, I will be marrying Murdoc Donoghue on some unforeseen date in our future. We haven't made any solid plans, because between our excitement over finally being engaged and how busy it can be to be a teacher here, we haven't had the time. We'll have a date set soon, if any of you are truly nosy enough to want to know about our private lives.

Though talking about this on the journals makes it seem a lot less private, doesn't it?

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Why should I be inconvenienced by you? I think you should cut the ~~shit~~ sap.

Maybe you should look away from things that sicken you. It's not that hard to do.

What can I say, I'm a masochist.

So that means you're enjoying this.

[There's an inkblot or two.]

Yeah, so fucking much.

The feeling of my teeth falling out one by one is just orgasmic.

Please, Strider.

I don't think your students want to see you talking about your orgasms.

Yeah, you're right. My bad.

[Filtered.]

But I bet you wanna hear all about the one I had with Murdoc.

[Because he is pissing jealousy and can't resist throwing that out there on the table.]

About as much as you want to hear about how he took my virginity, I'm sure.

He was so cute when it happened, in retrospect.

[Unfortunately Sybille doesn't feel the need to get mad over Bro sleeping with Murdoc, so her reaction is probably not what Bro's expecting.]

[that. definitely was not the reaction he was expecting at all. Any satisfaction he had at throwing it in her face is gone. Instead, the anger he'd been feeling and keeping at bay is taking over and he's ready to just explode into a firey ball of rage. And unfortunately, he can't stop himself from doing just that.]

Alright.

So now that the pretenses have officially been dropped, let me just say one thing.

Fuck you.

Because you're being really goddamn selfish from where I'm standing. Because you couldn't just roll over for once. Is your pride really fucking worth all of this shit? You couldn't just suck it up and stop talking shit to Snow?

No, you couldn't. And now you're dragging everyone else in and they have to suffer the consequences.

He has to suffer the consequences. The man whose feelings you're toying with. He's suffering the most, because it's pretty goddamn clear to anyone who knows either of you that your heart ain't in it. But you know what?

His is.

And you're fucking stepping on it.

Edited 2012-10-08 08:34 (UTC)

I am never going to roll over. Not to you, or Snow, or Murdoc, or anyone.

I don't have to explain myself or my actions. I don't have to justify myself to you, or anyone else who can't leave my business my own. I'm sorry you've gotten attached to Murdoc, but I'm not going to apologize that I'm not head over heels for him. If I'm toying with his feelings maybe he deserves that. He's the fool who still cares about me, and if he expects me to feel the same, after he got married and had children and never talked to me after I graduated, that's his own fault.

I don't want Murdoc to love me, but I'm pretty sure it's not even me he cares about. He's just clinging on to the memory of the girl I used to be, and he'll realize that sooner or later and this will all be over with.

If that offends you, I don't care. You are not my problem, and I don't care about how you feel.

Wow.

I honestly don't even know what to say anymore. How selfish can you even fucking get?

Or maybe the word I'm looking for is heartless. Yeah, that sounds way more goddamn accurate. I don't care what kind of mistakes he made. He doesn't fucking deserve this.

He doesn't deserve to have you take advantage of his feelings just because you're obviously still so hurt over whatever he did to you. He ignored you after graduation? That warrants fucking with his entire life right now? No, you're just being a petty bitch. He could move on if you would just grow the fuck up and quit being selfish.

It's a goddamn shame, because up until now I at least still cared about yours. But it's obvious you only care about yourself, so what's the point?

Maybe I should show him this so he knows you aren't actually worth his effort.

Go ahead. After all, I am heartless and selfish, so why should I care?

You don't know anything about me, not really, so I don't care about anything you have to say.

[He's seething. Absolutely, positively seething with rage. He hasn't been this angry in a long time. The indifference she's showing just makes it all the worse. He wants to make it stop. To get to her like she's getting to him so thoroughly. He wants to say something that will fucking hurt.]

Nah, I had it wrong.

You're not heartless. You just had it replaced with a metal one when you got the arm.

It doesn't know how to work right.

A cheap imitation, but it ain't as good as the real thing.

I lost my heart a long time ago, before I lost anything else.

[And he's done. He can't do this anymore. He's too angry and he doesn't even know what to say anymore, so he just. Slams the journal shut.]

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[filter] this. made me feel guilty to the point my stomach hurts. i'm so sorry.

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