I know him better than you do. Tony knows him better than you do. Really, John, of the small list of people who are close to him, you know him the least I would imagine. And our "bad path" has little to do with our choices and everything to do with who we are. We think and feel the same, really. And we gravitate to the same vices for comfort. It's extraordinary, really, to see my life and an alternate one side by side. Almost makes a convincing argument for fate.