sortinghat_rp | 013 | Sunday evening

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013 | Sunday evening

I have to say, today's game was fantastic. I'm honestly impressed with the performance of our professors and other staff members who participated.
Of course, I'm a little disappointed that Gryfferin lost, but I'm all for good sportsmanship and most of the professors on our team behaved admirably.
That being said, I hope we have more games like this in the future. I'd like another excuse to use the banners we made.

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I do too.

_{[Now he's just not sure how to react. It's really conflicting emotions that's he's feeling right now; on one hand there's the lingering negative ones from their argument. And then there's just... all the confusion from everything Bro is telling him. He's eleven. There's very little that he knows about relationships. It doesn't help that as long as he could remember, he never met any of his dad's girlfriends, if he even had one. He's used to single-parent family units. He's never dealt with a romantic interest being involved.

He's not used to knowing this much information either. The fact that he's ignorant on these matters doesn't help much either. He doesn't know what to say, what to think, or how to feel. He doesn't even know what to think about the fact that his uncle is interested in another guy. The only other instance of this he's aware of is between Arthur and Alfred, which didn't bother him because he doesn't really think about it much and he likes both of them well enough.

This is different because it's his uncle. Really, it's just confusing. There really aren't positive or negative emotions tied to any of this right now.]}

I'll be frank and admit I'm at a loss of how to respond to this.
Because it honestly comes as a big surprise.
I'm not sure how Dave'll feel about this. I'm not sure how I feel. I suppose the more important question right now is whether you'd forget about us or not.

[That makes him feel better, at least. For a moment. Like maybe they're on the right track.

But then Dirk writes more, and he isn't sure how to feel. Dirk's reaction isn't negative, but it's... not positive either. He just doesn't know what to say to most of it.]

Don't you remember the conversation we had? The one where I said no matter what, you and Dave will always come first? That was about this. I'll never forget about you or Dave.

I never meant to get feelings for him anyway. It just happened. Sometimes I wish it didn't.

Okay. That makes it slightly better.
I would seriously punch you otherwise.

What about the engaged thing?

Believe me, if it happened, I would let you punch me a hundred times. But it won't, so that's irrelevant.

It's complicated.

But I guess you're getting tired of hearing that, aren't you?
So... can you keep a secret? Probably the biggest secret you've ever had to keep... ever.

It's not that I don't trust you... It's more like I want to make sure you want to be burdened with this. It's pretty big. And I shouldn't put it on you, but. I'm willing to trust you, if you actually want to hear it.

[He's trying to take Murdoc's advice. Telling Dirk things to make him feel trustworthy and stuff. He's just trying to make this better any way he knows how, even if it's probably not a good idea in the end.]

_{[Bro, Dirk is eleven, remember? Normally this would indicate that maybe he shouldn't be trusted with huge secrets. But the difference is that Dirk tries to hard to act mature and stuff--he's not going to turn down a chance to prove himself in that regard. So for now, he's trying to push all other feelings aside.]}

Good. I don't want to have to break my hand.

I can handle it. What is it?

[Yeah, maybe it was a bad idea to trust Dirk with this, of all things. But he did trust Dirk. And he knew- or at least he really, really hoped that Dirk would be able to keep it a secret. And he just wanted to be able to answer Dirk's questions truthfully. He was tired of having to hide shit.]

The wedding is only happening because Snow threatened to deport Matteris.

She doesn't even love him.

_{[It takes Dirk a moment to reply.]}

I was aware of the first part, not the latter. So everything is just a matter of keeping up appearances? I told Professor Donoghue that it seemed fairly obvious when it was first announced.

Edited 2012-10-14 09:26 (UTC)

Yeah, pretty much. She said a lot of bad shit about him, too. It's definitely just an act. She's trying to save her own goddamn skin at this point. She doesn't even care about him.

[Probably not the best idea, bashing Dirk's charms teacher. But damn it he's bitter. And, he tells himself, it's all part of the truth.]

It was pretty obvious, yeah.

It's still pretty complicated, though. He loves her.

So basically,
You're in an unrequited love triangle?

[Inblots.

See, when it's put like that, Bro is even more unsure of the whole goddamn thing. It makes him wish he'd never gotten involved in the first place.]

Yeah, I guess so.

But

I mean, it isn't totally unrequited in regards to me.

We went on a date.

So. He likes you. But he's in love with her?
Correct me if I'm wrong, because I don't know anything about this sort of situation, but that sounds really fucked up.

Yeah, I guess so.

On both accounts.

[Fuck. Everything. This isn't a conversation he wants to be having at all.]

But I mean

he hasn't had the chance to fall in love with me yet.

Maybe it'll happen. And it's not like I love him yet, either.

I just like him a lot.

Edited 2012-10-14 10:11 (UTC)

Okay.
I will take your word for it.
It's still weird because he's a guy though.

....

What the hell does that have to do with anything?

A lot? It's not exactly commonplace, Uncle Dirk.
It's kind of confusing.
If you're happy? I don't care. It's just that.

[He isn't quite sure how to respond to that. On one hand, he's... a little annoyed? If only because it's any kind of issue at all. But then again, he realizes it's stupid to get upset about it, considering at the same time he did have Dirk's blessing. Ugh. It was just... confusing. And this was difficult in so many ways.]

I dunno, I guess I've just always believed it doesn't really matter who the hell it is or what their gender is.
But I get that maybe it could be a little weird or something.

But thanks. I'm glad I...

have your support?

Do I?

I mean, are you ok with this?

To be fair, it would be weird if it was a woman too.
Everything is weird.
But yeah, you do. I guess when it gets to that point I'll have to adjust.
I'm kinda just glad it's someone I like, and someone who at least tolerates me.

Thanks.

That means a lot to me, bro. I'd hate to be doing this if you didn't like him or didn't approve.

But he makes me happy.

Really fucking miserable sometimes.

But still happy.

So I'm glad that you're ok with it.

No problem, I guess.
When are you going to tell Dave?

I don't know.

Does he have to know? I mean, right now at least?

I don't know what's going on between us. I just feel like telling him would make things difficult right now. I wanna at least wait until I have a more solid idea of... what we even are.

Because right now I don't even know if we're going to be anything much longer, because... I dunno.

~~It's complic~~

[He's so tired of saying that.]

I'm just starting to feel like it'd be easier to take myself out of the picture, is all. So I might not even have to tell Dave anything, because there wouldn't be anything to tell.

Technically speaking, if you're willing to take yourself out of the picture, doesn't that mean you deserve to be in it more?

I can see where you're coming from with Dave, especially with him having been as angry as he has. But I think you should tell him as soon as everything isn't in the air. He'd probably be madder if you didn't.

I think it's only like that in books and TV shows, Dirk. In this case, it'd probably just be common sense.

If there's anything to tell, I'll tell him when it feels right.

That is unfortunate, then. I'm sorry.

Okay. I won't say anything to him at all. Not even vague hint.

It's no big deal.

Thanks.

And I'd appreciate it if you kept this on the down low with Murdoc, too. I mean, he knows I told you some of this stuff, but.

He doesn't know how she really feels. Not entirely. I don't wanna hurt him by telling him some of the shit she said.

It's. Uh.
Too late for that.

I'm sorry.

Don't be mad at me.

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