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[arachnoble]

[She was trying to resist posting this, but she just saw Strider and she couldn't resist.

The post isn't filtered, either.]

Strider.

You know there are better ways to conceal bruises, don't you? Plus there are spells that will get rid of bruises entirely instead of covering them up.

Comments

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[clockspinner]

fine take my fucking journal
see if i care
you gonna spank me too
or maybe take me up on top of the astronomy tower again
knock me round the head enough and all your problems will be gone for good

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[plushaeusrumpified]

dave

i

no

no no no no no no no!


i would never fucking

dave

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[clockspinner]

maybe if i was in a coma youd care more about me than about picking fights with your coworkers
too bad that bludger didnt scramble my brains a little more

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[plushaeusrumpified]

[His voice sounds tired. Upset, tired, and defeated. Because he just can't handle this shit anymore. He's so tired of fighting with Dave now and the things Dave is saying really hurts.]

I did it for you. Is that finally fucking good enough for you, Dave? The asshole called you a failure and I came here to kick his fucking ass. But I'm not good enough to even do that, because Banks got in the way. That's why I didn't want you to see me, because I'm such. a fucking. failure.

But believe what you want, Dave. You're obviously going to do it anyway no matter what I say. So just... whatever. I'm getting used to nothing I do being right anymore. Eventually I'll be able to just let it roll off my shoulders, huh? You'd think I would be able to by now, but I guess I'm not as much of a fucking Strider as I thought.

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[clockspinner]

[He goes to make a voice post, but all that comes out at first is the most miserable sob he's ever made.]

Why can't you understand that I just need you? I don't need you to whiteknight for me, I just want you to be there when I need you...

I don't care what anyone says about me. I would have been a lot happier if you'd just come to see me. I might be just being selfish and stupid, but I lost a lot today and it would have been awesome if you could have just come and told me it was okay. I don't need a whiteknight, I need a dad. I need my Bro...

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[plushaeusrumpified]

[Oh... god, that sound. It's enough to make tears well in his eyes instantly and he drops the lipstick he's holding as he starts shaking. Fuck. It rolls across the page, leaving a purple smear.

But then he listens to Dave speak, and he's suddenly shaking harder and fuck he can't keep the tears from splashing onto the page. Hopefully Dave isn't actually looking at the page.]

Dave... c-can't you see why I would fucking do it? It's because I'm just...s-so fucking proud of you. When he called you a...a failure, it just pissed me off so fucking much. I'd never been more mad in my life! It was worse than when you t-talked shit about Lalonde...

Because you're not. a failure. at all. You work so fucking hard and I can s-see that. I've never seen anybody as fucking hard-working and strong as you. I couldn't handle it. I just... fucking couldn't listen to that. Not when you work so hard. Not when I'm so fucking proud of you. Just... not ever. I-... I just...

I'm sorry. I'm s-sorry...f-for everything...really fucking sorry.

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[clockspinner]

[Four words. That's all he whispers into the journal.]

Just come back. Please.

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[plushaeusrumpified]

[...Yeah. Yeah, he's coming back.

Just give him a little while to stop crying.]