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[allisnotlost]

[Filtered away from Murdoc, Sybille and of course Snow.]

i knoww its a tad bit early in the year to be thinkin about this
but uh
does anyone havve room for one more durin wwinter break
and summer perhaps
because id appreciate it

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[plushaeusrumpified]

[Bro's eyebrows raise slightly at Eridan's words, specifically the 'Professor Donoghue' part. That's when it becomes clear that things are worse than he thought. Because... no. Just no. If Dave called him Professor Strider, that would've hurt more than... anything. At all. And suddenly his fears of getting involved are gone, because he needs to fix this for Murdoc's sake, whatever happened.]

Alright, you're gonna have to start at the beginning, because I feel like this is all way, way out of context.

[It's times like this that he wished his hearing wasn't so damn good so that he could pretend like he hadn't heard that last part, because that's. Seriously kinda depressing to hear. Not to mention a little irritating, because. Shut up, stop saying bad things about Murdoc.]

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[wwhatevver]

[He doesn't understand at all to why he wants to know, but at this point he half doesn't care if he tells someone out of close friends and family range what happens so they'll get mad at him as well. Eridan sits himself up and leans forward a hair to start telling what happened. ]

Alright fine. He was talkin to me in priwate ower the journals because I hawen't been wantin' to ewen look at him since that little announcement [Rolling his eyes.] he made. Of course I was pissed off about that because he didn't ewen think of talkin' to me or anythin' and I told him that when he addressed me. I asked him if the announcement was at least fake or somethin' for my own reasons and shit started escalatin' from there. Before I knew it he was accusin' me of not respectin' him and shit and sayin' that I hate him and I'm accusin' him for all of the shit that's happened in my life that he was newer around for.

[His cheeks are getting red from anger, and he's already getting a bit louder. But he's still leaving out really important details that could be used against him. He grips the arms of the chair tighter as he continued.]

And I told him that I bet his life would be a lot damn better if I wasn't around since I cause him so much fuckin' pain and turmoil and grief and I'm just so disrespectful to him and all that and he basically told me oh what does it matter it doesn't affect what's happenin' now. So, I told him that I didn't want to be his son anymore, and he didn't fuckin' stop me at all from sayin' that. In fact, he outright fuckin' told me that I'd better hawe somewhere to fuckin' stay durin' the holidays since he doesn't take guests for free.

[He takes a deep breath, sliding back down. His hands are lightly shaking from anger, and his cheeks are still pretty red. But he told at least a good chunk of the story that he wanted to tell, accidentally slipping out parts that he didn't wish to.] And that's what fuckin' happened.

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[plushaeusrumpified]

[At first Bro doesn't really expect him to really tell the story. He fully expected to have to push it out of Eridan, because... really, why should he expect Eridan to open up to him like that? Just because he's close to Murdoc doesn't mean he knows Eridan. Hell, the two of them don't really have a particularly good track record. But because of Murdoc, he feels... an attachment of sorts, to Eridan. Like he has to help him through this, for Murdoc. The two of them may not have the best relationship, but maybe that could change if he played his cards right and helped him with these problems.

So when Eridan starts speaking, he's a little surprised but he listens intently. As he does, the more and more it strikes him as an argument he could have with Dave and the similarity is just... disturbing. But it at least helps give him some idea as to how to proceed, considering he's fixed problems with Dave in the past and it makes him feel like he has a shot at this. Because he's figured out how to fix things like this before.

He's honestly surprised to hear some of the things coming from Eridan's mouth though in regards to Murdoc. And yet, he knows how similar he and Murdoc can be... How they both put their foot in their mouth. He knows Murdoc's been stressed lately and going through a lot of shit. Bro knows how it can be when you're going through that kind of thing and dealing with... people like Eridan.

As uncomfortable as it is, his mind goes back to a few months ago on the Astronomy tower right after his brother had died. When Dave had antagonized him and caused him to flip his shit completely and utterly. When... he'd almost killed Dave over something stupid. He feels sympathy for Murdoc like he's never felt before, because he absolutely beyond a shadow of a doubt knows that Murdoc didn't mean it at all. Just like he hadn't meant it.

Once Eridan is finished, he's quiet for at least a minute, trying to figure out how best to confront the situation. It's a delicate one, far from easy to even begin to approach. A part of him doesn't want to put his own personal experiences in it too much, but at the same time... If that's the only thing that works, if that's the only thing that can fix this for the two of them, then he's absolutely willing to go there. It would be hard, but if that's what it took...

Finally he swallows.]

Listen... What I'm about to say isn't at all an attempt to excuse any of the shit your dad said, alright? Because... honestly, there's no excusing that. It wasn't fair of him to do and to be honest it was shitty as hell. But...

[He takes in a small breath, preparing to really get into it.]

He's going through a lot right now, y'know? Like... probably more than anybody else in this castle. That Snow guy, he... He really stirred up a lot of shit for your old man. A lot of shit that the guy is having a really hard time handling. I think he just took a lot of it out on you, and like I said, that's... not fair at all. But when you're that stressed out, you say a lot of shit you don't mean.

I don't believe for a second that he meant anything he said. Because trust me, I have plenty...too much experience doing and saying shit I don't mean when I'm upset and stressed out...

[He trails off quietly then, obviously getting lost in the memory of it, which gives Eridan plenty of time to digest what he said and speak if he wants to.]

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[wwhatevver]

[He actually does sit there for the moment, letting his words soak in. He's still incredibly angry right now, but he's starting to understand. He knew this was just so stressful to his father, he knew that there was way too much going on. He understood that because he was going through the exact same thing to a smaller degree.

But at the same time this entire conversation strikes him as strange. Why does he even care? Why would he care? Why was he getting way too into this? Did Murdoc put him up to it? What the hell even gives. He shouldn't care, this isn't his business and the last time Eridan remembered these two weren't exactly the best of friends.

As far as he could tell, anyways.

With another slight shift, his vision moves to the floor. He can't really seem to keep eye contact, as much as he wishes to. He doesn't want to admit that Bro is absolutely right because that would make him wrong, and he's incredibly selfish in that sense.

Words slowly begin to come out all of a suddenly. He honestly doesn't know what to say, but the silence proves to be way too awkward for him to handle. Like. way too awkward to handle. ]

... I see. So, we're both at fault for this is what you're sayin'. Because of all of the stress that's been wedgin' onto him and ... ewen on myself?

[The inflection of the question almost seems to give away how unsure he is of what he should even be saying. He really doesn't know if that was the right thing to say at all.

Actually, he's now thinking that he shouldn't have said anything at all. He shouldn't have told him anything, he shouldn't have even accepted his offer to talk, and he's now regretting it all.

God he hates dealing with these types of problems and feelings.]