TwO

[mo_cara]

[sloppily spelled private]
sometimes it motherfuckin sucks to have a
best friend who says that it don't count as a relationship
and a dude i like who would rather talk to lizards
and neither of them are all into hanging with me right now anyway
and everyone else got in their pans what they think i'm crazy
i wonder what it's like to all up and be someone else
just groovin on miracles and bumpin sounds and not even caring what no other motherfucker thinks
maybe ill go ask puckerman if he's got any weed

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[Public entry.]
sO wHaT iS aLl Up WiTh ThEm SnOw MoThErFuCkErS?

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[yerawwizarderi]

[Time for a really, really awkward shoulder pat. Eridan is the worst at attempting to comfort somebody, but he's going to give it his best.]

I'm just tryin' to help.

[mo_cara]

[Gamzee unfolds his long, lanky body at the pat, as though it were an invitation, and wraps his arms around Eridan's waist, pressing his face into the smaller boy's shoulder completely unselfconsciously.]

[yerawwizarderi]

[There's a good thirty second lag for Eridan's shock, when he's not sure where to put his hands or what to do with them. And then he gets his arms awkwardly around Gamzee's shoulders, and sort of pats him lightly on the head, trying to remember what his friend does for him, in those moments when he allows himself to be vulnerable.]

It's gonna be okay, Gam, you'll see.

[mo_cara]

[The older boy sighs softly - he never really cries, about anything, but he feels all tight and ugly and sad inside.] I guess so. It just don't feel so good right now.

[He clings to Eridan, nuzzling at the other boy's shoulder disconsolately, but it does help, a little to have someone holding him back, even if it's awkward and unsure.]

[yerawwizarderi]

[Eridan just keeps patting his hair, and maybe compulsively untangles some of it awkwardly, like at any second Gamzee might take offense or get weird about the fact that Eridan is try to get rid of a rat's nest.]

Who was it?

[mo_cara]

[But he doesn't seem to, he just stays cuddle up against Eridan with his eyes closed.] It don't really matter now, does it?

[yerawwizarderi]

[Eridan tugs on his hair, just a little bit.] If it didn't matter you wwouldn't be so upset.

[mo_cara]

It don't matter 'cause it ain't gonna be changing. That shit be set in stone. Can't make no motherfucker want boys when he all be liking ladies. [Gamzee sounds defeated, and his head goes where Eridan tugs it, though he keeps his eyes closed.]

[yerawwizarderi]

[Eridan just tugs him closer, and goes back to combing out his hair again.] How does he know, though, maybe he just hadn't thought about it yet?

[He's trying so hard, he really is.]

[mo_cara]

Brother, he done thunk about it, and he told my ass no. [That's as clear as Gamzee can spell it out, though he does appreciate the effort, really he does.] Can't we just all not be speaking on it?

[yerawwizarderi]

I don't even fuckin' know what all it is. [And he wants to know who it was, in some weird, jealous way that he doesn't want to look too close at.] What do you want to talk about instead?

[mo_cara]

Do we have to talk about anything? [The older boy asks, a little plaintively as he nuzzles into Eridan.]