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[mo_cara]

So ChRiStMaS wAs PrEtTy SwEeT, sAw My BrOs, GoT sOmE fInE MoThErFuCkIn SwAg, HaD mY bAbY oVeR.
i PrEtTy MuCh ThOuGhT lIfE wErEn'T gOnNa GeT mUcH bEtTeR.
then it all kinda turned to shit.
:o(

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[Private]

[wwistful]

Are you quite alright, Makara? Has something happened?

[He's a jerk at the best of times, but as a professor and knowing Gamzee, this entry is a little concerning.]

[Private]

[mo_cara]

mY bOy HaD tO gEt HiMsElF gOnE.
i GuEsS i AiN't So AlL rIgHt, PrOfEsSoR.

[Private]

[wwistful]

Mister Kishitani is gone?
You don't mean to say he died, did you?

[Private]

[mo_cara]

Uh
WoAh, No, He JuSt HaD tO bE mOvInG oN aLl QuIcK cAuSe HiS dA mAdE hIm.
BuT i DoN't KnOw ThAt I'lL eVeR gEt To Be SeEiNg HiM aGaIn.

[Private]

[wwistful]

Oh.
[Well then, way to jump to conclusions Murdoc. Good job.]
That's unfortunate. He was a good student despite his

somewhat invasive questions.
Is it possible to remain in touch?

[Private]

[mo_cara]

I'm GoNnA tRy, BuT hE sAiD sOmEtImEs ThEy MiGhT nOt Be GeTtInG nO hOoTbEaStS oN aCcOuNt Of ThEy MiGhT hAvE tO hIdE.

[Private]

[wwistful]

That is a most unfortunate turn of events, Makara. You have my condolences.

Don't let it get to you too badly, lad. I'm sure you'll find someone new in your own time.

[Private]

[mo_cara]

[TOO SOON MURDOC TOO SOON]

ain't interested in finding someone new.
I THINK I BETTER BE GOING NOW, PROFESSOR.

[Private]

[wwistful]

Understanbly, of course. I didn't mean to imply anything by it, Makara. I was only trying to be


comforting.
[He is so very bad at this.]
If you ever want to talk in person you are welcome to.

[Private]

[mo_cara]

[Aw, he's trying, which is sweet. Gamzee's just a mopey teenager right now.]

maybe.

[Private]

[wwistful]

As you wish. Try not to get to down, I'm sure Mister Kishitani would want for you to be your usual, pleasant self.

[Private]

[mo_cara]

I nEvEr GoT tHe UnDerStAnDiNg Of WhY pEoPlE sAy ThAt.
If I wAs GoNe, I'd WaNt My BrOs To MiSs Me, AnD nOt JuSt Be AlL aCtInG lIkE iT dOn'T mAtTeR tHaT i'M gOnE.

Re: [Private]

[wwistful]

I'm sure he'd want to be missed but I'm not so sure he'd want for you to be terribly upset. If he were any sort of boyfriend he would want you to feel happy, don't you think?

[Private]

[mo_cara]

[long pause, as Gamzee thinks about this]

i guess i'm a crap boyfriend, then.

[Because he doesn't really want Shinra to be happy they're apart. Sure, maybe later, he doesn't want the other boy to have his life ruined ... but right now, if he found out Shinra was having a grand old time, he'd be a little hurt, so he guess that makes him a really bad person. Damn it. Well, not like he didn't know that already.]