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[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

tHESE DREAMS ARE, uH, gETTING RIDICULOUS,
i WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING LIKE THAT,
nOT WITH THEM, i MEAN, i THINK ANYWAY,
aND WHY IS IT HAPPENING IN THE, sHACK OF ALL PLACES,
i DON'T, uH, gET IT AT ALL,
aND i REALLY WISH i WOULD STOP WAKING UP WET, TOO,
iT'S, sUCH A MESS, aND i HAVE TO DO WAY MORE LAUNDRY THAN i USED TO,
bUT i DON'T CARE ABOUT THAT,
oKAY ACTUALLY i DO CARE ABOUT THAT,
mUM KEEPS ASKING ME WHY i HAVE SO MANY DIRTY PANTS,
iT'S A LITTLE EMBARASSING ACTUALLY,,,
bUT MOSTLY i JUST WISH i KNEW WHY, tHIS IS HAPPENING,
kARKAT AND GAMZEE ARE, uH, jUST MY FRIENDS,
i DON'T LIKE THEM LIKE THAT,
i'M NOT GAY,
sERIOUSLY, sO, bRAIN, pLEASE STOP TRYING TO CONFUSE ME,
iT WOULD BE REALLY NICE OF YOU,
i HAVE TOO MUCH TO DEAL WITH, i DON'T NEED TO BE CONFUSED, tOO,
i THINK i'LL JUST GO BACK TO SLEEP, aFTER CHANGING PANTS, i GUESS,
wRITING ALL THIS MADE ME FEEL BETTER,
kEEPING THIS DREAM JOURNAL WAS A GOOD IDEA,
i, uH, nEED TO HAVE THOSE MORE OFTEN,
aNYWAY, gOOD NIGHT, jOURNAL,

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[animalmagnetism]

{>Short of memory charms?<}
{>I can't think of a thing that would convince them.<}

{>What you can do is relax.<}
{>It's not going away but it will get more manageable as time goes on.<}
{>Go with the flow.<}
{>There are messy parts but it can be fun too!<}

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[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

bUT, uH, tHERE'S NO FLOW TO GO WITH, bECAUSE,
uM,

oKAY, i DON'T KNOW ANYMORE,
i CAN'T EXPLAIN IT,

bUT, uH, tHERE IS NO FLOW,

rEALLY, i PROMISE,

i AM NOT A BEACH, oR A RIVER,
nO FLOW HERE, sIR,

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[animalmagnetism]

{>Just because things aren't quite flowing yet doesn't mean they won't start.<}
{>I don't think I was much older than you when I started noticing things that weren't the Forbidden Forest.<}
{>But the more uptight you are about growing up the more painful it will be.<}

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[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

uHHH, tHIS IS GIVING ME A HEADACHE,
nO OFFENSE, i MEAN, sORRY,
bUT, i DON'T KNOW HOW TO CONVINCE YOU THAT,
i'M NOT FLOWING, oR EVER WILL,

eSPECIALLY BECAUSE THAT WOULD IMPLY, sWIMMING,
aND OTHER THINGS THAT, i CAN'T DO,
uH, bECAUSE i'M IN A WHEELCHAIR,
sO,

cAN WE PLEASE, uH, sTOP TALKING ABOUT THIS,

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[animalmagnetism]

{>Alright.<}
{>But my door is open if you ever want to talk about anything at all.<}
{>Just mind the occasional pixie.<}

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[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

uHH,
yOU HAVE PIXIES,



cAN i COME AND, vISIT WHEN SCHOOL STARTS, pLEASE,

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[animalmagnetism]

{>I don't really HAVE them!<}
{>I'm pretty sure they think they have ME.<}
{>But they're frequent visitors.<}
{>They like the attention.<}
{>And treats.<}