[05]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

tHESE DREAMS ARE, uH, gETTING RIDICULOUS,
i WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING LIKE THAT,
nOT WITH THEM, i MEAN, i THINK ANYWAY,
aND WHY IS IT HAPPENING IN THE, sHACK OF ALL PLACES,
i DON'T, uH, gET IT AT ALL,
aND i REALLY WISH i WOULD STOP WAKING UP WET, TOO,
iT'S, sUCH A MESS, aND i HAVE TO DO WAY MORE LAUNDRY THAN i USED TO,
bUT i DON'T CARE ABOUT THAT,
oKAY ACTUALLY i DO CARE ABOUT THAT,
mUM KEEPS ASKING ME WHY i HAVE SO MANY DIRTY PANTS,
iT'S A LITTLE EMBARASSING ACTUALLY,,,
bUT MOSTLY i JUST WISH i KNEW WHY, tHIS IS HAPPENING,
kARKAT AND GAMZEE ARE, uH, jUST MY FRIENDS,
i DON'T LIKE THEM LIKE THAT,
i'M NOT GAY,
sERIOUSLY, sO, bRAIN, pLEASE STOP TRYING TO CONFUSE ME,
iT WOULD BE REALLY NICE OF YOU,
i HAVE TOO MUCH TO DEAL WITH, i DON'T NEED TO BE CONFUSED, tOO,
i THINK i'LL JUST GO BACK TO SLEEP, aFTER CHANGING PANTS, i GUESS,
wRITING ALL THIS MADE ME FEEL BETTER,
kEEPING THIS DREAM JOURNAL WAS A GOOD IDEA,
i, uH, nEED TO HAVE THOSE MORE OFTEN,
aNYWAY, gOOD NIGHT, jOURNAL,

Comments

[shellfishlovver]

[Have a whole bunch of scrawls and dots]
This isn't appropriate for school journals, Matteris. Honestly.

[plushaeusrumpified]

oh snap.
you done fucked up big time.
a broom closet.

real fucking classy.

[shellfishlovver]

this isnt any of your business.

[plushaeusrumpified]

dont you know all the cool kids do it on the astronomy tower.

[shellfishlovver]

Don't you have a broom to shove between your legs?

[plushaeusrumpified]

well someones just bitter that they lost the key to their favorite broom closet.

[shellfishlovver]

is that meant to be funny? Try harder.

[plushaeusrumpified]

man you are such a fuck up i dont even.

dont you know that when you fuck in a broom closet.
youre supposed to have a follow up.
somewhere fancy.
restricted section maybe.

[wwistful]

Right. What magazine did you pull that one from, lad?
Go fuck around with someone your own age.

[arachnoble]

I don't care!!!!

We were both aurors, you could have seen me at any time!!!! But apparently putting out meant I wasn't worth a damn to you anymore!!!!!

[shellfishlovver]

Don't use that excuse. If you wanted to see me you would have found me.

[arachnoble]

Why should I look for someone who didn't CARE???? Maybe if you said goodbye I would have thought you WANTED TO SEE ME AGAIN. But instead, you just left.

[shellfishlovver]

i didnt think you would care

[arachnoble]

WHY WOULD YOU THINK THAT??? You have no reason to believe that!!!!

[shellfishlovver]

you never seemed to care one way or another

[arachnoble]

After everything I did and said????? Do you really think I would fool around with someone I didn't love care about??

You were my only friend in the entire school.

[plushaeusrumpified]

yes yes good.
let it out.
he deserves it.
he is a douchebag isnt he.

[arachnoble]

Who the fuck are you???? This has nothing to do with you!!!

[wwistful]

You were my only friend too.

This...isn't really the place to be saying this.

Would you like to meet in the restricted section for some privacy?

[arachnoble]

Doesn't seem that way!!!!

I really don't see how the LIBRARY IS MORE PRIVATE!!!

[wwistful]

It's the library. You didn't expect anyone to be studying in the holidays did you, love?

Besides. The restricted section is restricted and it's not bloody windy like the lake.

[arachnoble]

Go fuck yourself.

And you know as well as I do that being "restricted" doesn't mean anything to students!!!

[wwistful]

There are hardly any students here!

If you didn't want to talk just say it, I'm tired of fucking about.

[arachnoble]

They'll be back soon enough!!

Funny choice of wording, Donoghue.

Fine, I'll meet you at the library.