sortinghat_rp | SEVEN ♋

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SEVEN ♋

ATTENTION FUCKASSES OF HOGWARTS.
THAT'S ALL OF YOU ASSHOLES.
PSA: I'M FUCKING DONE PLAYING NICE GUY AROUND HERE.
FINISHED.
I DON'T GIVE ONE SHIT ABOUT YOUR FUCKING PROBLEMS.
YOU CAN ALL GO FUCK YOURSELVES BECAUSE I AM FUCKING DONE CLEANING UP THE NAPPIES THAT YOU CONSTANTLY SHIT IN WHENEVER YOU HAVE A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN.
FUCK ALL OF YOU.
NO LOVE -
KARKAT

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[good god, Gamzee, here's Karkat confessing and you have no clue :|]

I'll remember that.

[Yeah, if he knew, he'd be over there in a flash. But the whole yes and no thing about the crush is pretty much confounding any understanding Gamzee has of this whole thing. If Karkat had said, Yes, I have a crush goddamnit, he would have gotten it. But he can't really believe that the friend who's had two girlfriends would really want him like that, not without it being spelled out in giant flaming capital letters.

Sometimes Gamzee can be as dumb as Tavros about these things.]

yOu KnOw I lOvE yOu, MaN.

I know, man.
I just...really need to sort this shit out.
Figure out if I'm
y'know

[he hesitates to write it out before it's there in small letters]

gay

[Woah, wait, hold the MOTHERFUCKIN' presses, what?]

YoU
what

[pause]

i thought you were all up and liking girls.

That's what I'm confused about!
Have you even been reading a word I've written?

yeah, but i thought you meant

[Something else. No, that just sounds so lame to say. Damn! What is he supposed to type? It would probably be kind of shitty to act all happy about the possibility, but-]

When'd you start getting your wicked know on about maybe something being up?

I don't know.
I just...know that I like kissing you. And Tav too, I guess.
I dunno.

As much as you like kissing your ladies?

...I've never kissed either of them.

[Woah, what?]

HoW cOmE?

I guess I was just waiting for the right time.

YoU aIn'T nEvEr WaItEd WiTh TaVrOs.

[And don't think it hasn't escaped Gamzee's notice that he's been the one to initiate the kissing with Karkat, but Karkat was the one that took Tavros's first kiss, and seemed eager enough to keep going that one night. Not that he'll ever mention this. It's just ... there, in his head.]

ThAt WhY yOu ThInK yOu MiGhT bE bEnDy?

I was drunk and off my fucking head at the time, man.
That's why it's been so hard.
I'm just. not. fucking. SURE.

You want to try and figure that shit out with me?

[That's probably the exact wrong thing to say, but it just comes out through the pen, and Gamzee stares at it, a little worriedly, the words just sitting there on the page.]

This is something I need to do on my own.
Sorry, man, but I don't think a feelings jam is going to help this time.

That weren't what I was offering.
You're probably being in the rightness space, though.
Sorry if I done caused any problems for you.

Either way, bro.
I just need my space for a little bit, okay?

[Ow. OwowowowOW. There's a pause, and it takes a whole lot for Gamzee to write the next words.]

Sure thing, motherfucker.
Whatever you need.
I'll do my motherfuckin' utmost to leave you alone until you want to be talking or something.

[He notices the pause in Gamzee's next words and just...feels bad.]

It's not your fault, dude.
I've just had a lot of shit happen to me lately and it's all piled up.
Like usual, the world conspires against me I fucking swear to God.

Yeah, I hear you, my brother.
I'm sorry you be going through so much shit.
You let a motherfucker know if you need anything.
You're my main motherfucker.

[Gamzee really just wants to find a way out of this conversation right now, so he can curl up and be miserable, just for a little while, but he's a little afraid if he does, Karkat will catch on that there's something wrong.]