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[plushaeusrumpified]

No class this week. Sorry. Just reread the stuff we've been going over last week.

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He's gone again.

I have no idea what to even think or feel right now. Why did it even happen in the first place if he was just gonna leave again?

Doesn't seem very fair to me.

But now I've got a kid who just lost his dad for the second time. I don't even know anymore. Why's it seem like being in this castle's nothing but suffering? It almost makes me wanna quit. Homeschool them from now on or something. At least I can count on myself not to screw with shit like this.

I just have a hard time wishing it didn't happen though. It was good while it lasted, I just

I dunno. Whatever.

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[plushaeusrumpified]

Then why did it have to happen at all?

I'm just so fucking conflicted right now. I don't want to regret it but I don't want to be happy about it either, goddamn it.

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[accioleggings]

It's alright to feel happy about seeing him again.
There's no shame in being happy you had the chance to hug your dead brothers brother.

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[plushaeusrumpified]

I don't want to feel happy because that just makes it hurt more.

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[accioleggings]

It's always going to hurt. It gets easier and it gets better but the hurt never really goes away.
The best thing to do is not focus on the hurt. It can take a while but it helps.

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[plushaeusrumpified]

Yeah, that's what I was doing before. It was slow but it worked. Now it's all just raw again.

And I'm not even worried about myself. I know I can get over it eventually. But what about Dirk/

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[accioleggings]

Time.
That's...all I can really suggest, I'm sorry.
Time and keep the lines of communication open at all times.
Make sure he knows you're there to listen when he needs it. Having someone you know you can talk to can make all the difference in the world in my experience.

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[plushaeusrumpified]

It was easy to do that when I was getting over it though.

Now it's hard to listen because some of the shit he's saying really fucking hurts. It's like before I was numb and now there are things I don't want to hear.

Can you talk to him or something? Please? I don't know what the fuck to say anymore because a part of me just get angry. I don't wanna say something I'll regret, but I just...

I don't fucking know.

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[accioleggings]

I'll try. I can't promise anything but I'll try to help.

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[plushaeusrumpified]

[His reply comes a while later.]

I didn't realize Kankri came back. It was selfish of me to ask when you're going through so much shit too.

I'm sorry.

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[accioleggings]

It's fine, you didn't know.
I don't mind.






Karkat's father came back too.

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[plushaeusrumpified]

Jesus fuck.

Why the hell would this even happen? It doesn't make sense.

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[accioleggings]

I don't know.
I just
i really don't know

[Sorry, Bro, the pages are getting a little damp now. Just ignore that, okay?]

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[plushaeusrumpified]

[No. No, no, no.

Not Sal. Not goddamn Sal. Ever since Bro had gotten to Hogwarts it was like Sal was the only sane one. He was like Bro's rock. He was always there with advice and logic and just.

No. He couldn't be crying. Bro couldn't deal with that.

Just fuck it all.]

Fuck.

Don't cry.

Please. I can't.

You...

How the hell do you expect me to keep it in if you can't.

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[accioleggings]

I'm sorry
I'm fine
Just
I'm fine

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[plushaeusrumpified]

No you're fucking not.

I'm sorry man.

I'll leave you alone, I'm just fucking making it worse. I'm sorry.