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Bro Strider ([personal profile] plushaeusrumpified) wrote in [community profile] sortinghat_rp2012-09-30 10:17 pm
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No class this week. Sorry. Just reread the stuff we've been going over last week.

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He's gone again.

I have no idea what to even think or feel right now. Why did it even happen in the first place if he was just gonna leave again?

Doesn't seem very fair to me.

But now I've got a kid who just lost his dad for the second time. I don't even know anymore. Why's it seem like being in this castle's nothing but suffering? It almost makes me wanna quit. Homeschool them from now on or something. At least I can count on myself not to screw with shit like this.

I just have a hard time wishing it didn't happen though. It was good while it lasted, I just

I dunno. Whatever.

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givesyouaboner: (stiffen that upper lip little lady)

[personal profile] givesyouaboner 2012-10-01 02:26 am (UTC)(link)
Okay. I'll do that.

[Except he won't. He has no motivation to do anything anymore.]
plushaeusrumpified: (42)

[personal profile] plushaeusrumpified 2012-10-01 02:28 am (UTC)(link)
You don't have to.
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[personal profile] thegluethatbinds 2012-10-01 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry to hear that, Strider.
plushaeusrumpified: (132)

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[personal profile] plushaeusrumpified 2012-10-01 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
Sorry doesn

Thanks.

I appreciate it.
accioleggings: (You put your arms around me)

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[personal profile] accioleggings 2012-10-01 02:32 am (UTC)(link)
It's hard, I know.
But it helps if you try to think of it as closure, for Dirk and for you.
You both got to see him one last time, talk to him, show him how well Dirk is doing all things considered.




I know how you feel. I really do.
givesyouaboner: (don't you cry)

[personal profile] givesyouaboner 2012-10-01 02:34 am (UTC)(link)
It wouldn't be conducive to get behind on assignments.
plushaeusrumpified: (14)

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[personal profile] plushaeusrumpified 2012-10-01 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
It was good, yeah. Lotta closure and stuff.

He gave me permission to adopt Dirk.



Really, because I don't even fucking know right now how I even feel.
plushaeusrumpified: (to carry on)

[personal profile] plushaeusrumpified 2012-10-01 02:39 am (UTC)(link)
I don't think anyone expects you to stay on top of stuff right now.

I don't.
mightyandtall: (010 | true or false)

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[personal profile] mightyandtall 2012-10-01 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
THIS IS SOMETHING I UNDERSTAND. BUT I DON'T KNOW IF THERE IS ANYTHING THAT CAN MAKE IT BETTER AT ALL.
IN FACT I THINK THERE ISN'T.

I'M SORRY, DIRK.
accioleggings: (But yours would look better than mine)

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[personal profile] accioleggings 2012-10-01 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
That's great. I'm really, really happy for you.






We're in the same boat, I don't either.
givesyouaboner: (What you crying about?)

[personal profile] givesyouaboner 2012-10-01 02:43 am (UTC)(link)
That would be implying there I have a reason to.
I don't.
It's nothing that should get in the way of studies.
plushaeusrumpified: (23)

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[personal profile] plushaeusrumpified 2012-10-01 02:43 am (UTC)(link)
It wasn't supposed to be like this though. He's supposed to be alive. He's supposed to be the one taking care of him. He wasn't supposed to ever die in the first place, Sal. Why the fuck did he have to leave again? Why couldn't he stay?
plushaeusrumpified: (14)

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[personal profile] plushaeusrumpified 2012-10-01 02:45 am (UTC)(link)
No, you're right. There isn't. People are stupid if they think anything can make this okay. It's not. It's fucked up and it isn't fair.
plushaeusrumpified: (god can't hear you)

[personal profile] plushaeusrumpified 2012-10-01 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
Dirk, don't.

Don't pretend like it doesn't fucking hurt, because I know it does, alright?
mightyandtall: (006 | In such an ugly way)

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[personal profile] mightyandtall 2012-10-01 02:48 am (UTC)(link)
THIS LEVEL OF CRUELTY IS UNHEARD OF IN YOUR INSTANCE AND IN THE INSTANCE OF OTHERS. PERHAPS THERE IS HIDDEN GOODNESS SOMEWHERE BUT EVEN SO IT SHOULDN'T HAVE HAPPENED TO GOOD PEOPLE.

[He, though? He deserved it.]
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accioleggings: (That we've got it going on)

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[personal profile] accioleggings 2012-10-01 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
Whatever happened this week, it was only temporary. We had to know it was even if we didn't want to believe it.

It's not fair. No one should have to die that young and leave behind so much.

[There's a very high chance he's not just talking about David.]
givesyouaboner: (008)

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[personal profile] givesyouaboner 2012-10-01 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
You're not me. Maybe I don't feel anything at all.

[he's not a convincing liar]
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[personal profile] plushaeusrumpified 2012-10-01 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
He wouldn't want you to bottle it up. He wouldn't want you to be sad forever. He'd want you to let it out and move on. So please just do him that favor and don't bottle it up like you've been doing.
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[personal profile] plushaeusrumpified 2012-10-01 03:00 am (UTC)(link)
Then why did it have to happen at all?

I'm just so fucking conflicted right now. I don't want to regret it but I don't want to be happy about it either, goddamn it.
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[personal profile] plushaeusrumpified 2012-10-01 03:00 am (UTC)(link)
Well if that's the case then I goddamn deserved it.

Dirk didn't.
givesyouaboner: (even when you smile)

can't

[personal profile] givesyouaboner 2012-10-01 03:02 am (UTC)(link)
But it's not fair. He shouldn't have died. He shouldn't have had to go away again. I was better off with him not coming back at all.
mightyandtall: (007 | Every time I look inside)

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[personal profile] mightyandtall 2012-10-01 03:05 am (UTC)(link)
THEN IT JUST GOES BACK TO LIFE SUCKS SOMETIMES.
I DON'T HAVE THE ANSWERS.
plushaeusrumpified: (when the curtain's call)

[personal profile] plushaeusrumpified 2012-10-01 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
No.

No, no, no. Don't say shit like that. At least we got to fucking say goodbye. At least... at least he knows [I don't hate him.] that you love him. Weren't you afraid of that? Didn't you think he thought you hated him? Now you know he doesn't.

It wasn't fucking bad. It was good. It hurts like hell but it wasn't bad, alright?
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[personal profile] plushaeusrumpified 2012-10-01 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah pretty much. Whatever.
It's not like I expected you to have any.
givesyouaboner: (I can see you're sad)

[personal profile] givesyouaboner 2012-10-01 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
But it hurts even more and that's what makes it bad. I'd rather not feel anything at all but I can't. Everything hurts and nothing is okay and I just want him back, Uncle Dirk.

Why did he have to go away so soon?
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