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[mo_cara]

So ChRiStMaS wAs PrEtTy SwEeT, sAw My BrOs, GoT sOmE fInE MoThErFuCkIn SwAg, HaD mY bAbY oVeR.
i PrEtTy MuCh ThOuGhT lIfE wErEn'T gOnNa GeT mUcH bEtTeR.
then it all kinda turned to shit.
:o(

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[mo_cara]

ShInRa'S gOnE.

[candycrabapple]

AS IN HE'S BROKEN UP WITH YOU? WHAT IN THE EVER WORSHIPPED GOD OF SCREW-UPS MADE HIM GO AND DO THAT FOR?

[mo_cara]

No, He
WeLl, YeAh, I gUeSs We BrOkE uP bUt It WaS bEcAuSe HiS dA tOoK hIm OuTtA sChOoL aNd ThEy HaD tO mOvE aWaY sO i CaN't SeE hIm No MoRe.

[candycrabapple]

WHERE ARE YOU?

[mo_cara]

AsTrOnOmY tOwEr.

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[candycrabapple]

[Karkat doesn't even bother closing his journal, he just leaves it with the rest of his books in the library and runs off to the tower. It takes him a while with stairs changing on him and his tiny legs but he get's there and just drops down next to his best friend, hugging him.]

[mo_cara]

[Gamzee's sitting cross legged next to the stone wall that surrounds the tower, just staring out with a melancholy expression. He intends to go back down to his room eventually and dig out all the even mildly intoxicating substances he can get his hands on and ingest them, possibly all at once, but for right now he can't go anywhere, he just feels numb.

When Karkat drops down next to him, it's automatic to wrap his arms around the smaller boy in return, to tip his head down and bury his face in the Gryffindor's hair, sighing.]

[candycrabapple]

[He shifts as close as he can, tilting his head so it's less awkward for Gamzee and his buried face. Staying quiet for a few minutes.]

At least tell me he was cut up about leaving.

[mo_cara]

[Gamzee's silent himself for awhile, just breathing in the comforting smell of his best friend, though a part of him is terrified, now more than ever, that Karkat's going to go, too, somehow, somewhen. Everyone goes eventually.]

Yeah. He ... his da made him. I guess something went wrong. I ain't got the knowing of what, but he- they had to go all of a sudden and he hardly even got to say goodbye.

[candycrabapple]

[Well for now he really doesn't seem all that inclined to even be more than half an inch away from his best friend.]

And what? No owl's or even normal post? What could either of them have done to make that not a possibility? His dad wasn't into dark wizard business was he?

[mo_cara]

He said he would be trying to owl when he could, but he wasn't sure ... I don't know what his da was up to, except science. He seemed like an all right motherfucker when I met him, but maybe he was all getting up to some bad shit. [gloomily] And now maybe they're all being fugitives and I ain't never gonna see Shinra until they catch his da and put him in Alcatrazkaban.

[candycrabapple]

We don't know what they are right now. Sure, they're probably in a metric tonne of trouble that could possibly end in more than just a trip to Azkaban for his dad.

[He pauses then adds quickly.]

Or they just think they're in bigger trouble than they actually are, or trying to avoid suspicion for something that actually makes them look more...Suspicious...

[He's starting to realise he's not being very helpful right now.]

[mo_cara]

Oh, damn you think they're really gonna end up in that motherfuckin' place, with all the mirth sucked right the fuck outta them until they turn like them gray ghosts? [Gamzee asks worriedly.] They wouldn't do that to no kid, though, right?

[candycrabapple]

Please, Shinra would have to actually kill someone to get into Azkaban at our age. I'm sure he'd actually be fine..

[He gives him a comforting squeeze.]

As long as his dad actually hasn't fucked up big time they'll be fine.

[mo_cara]

But what if he did? Do something motherfuckin' monumental fuck-up? [peering down at Karkat worriedly]

[candycrabapple]

If he's done something wrong he needs to be punished for it, that's the whole point of laws, Gamzee.

[He reaches up and strokes his face comfortingly.]

But worrying like crazy isn't going to help you. Shinra is at least still a kid, so at most all they could do to him is break his wand.
And if his dad has... Well, do wizards have foster care?

[mo_cara]

[frowns, leaning into Karkat's hand, voice quieting a little] Just don't be seeming right, is all, to be putting no motherfuckers in jail like that. If he made Shinra, and Shinra's good, 'cause he is, then he can't be too bad of a dude, right? No matter what he done.

[candycrabapple]

[He keeps stroking his face.]

My dad was a military hero, and I'm really nothing like that. Just because someone's good doesn't mean their parents are. Fuck. Just because all the Strider's are irritating douchebags, doesn't mean all the apples fall straight down without rolling away.

[mo_cara]

Dirk's okay. [automatically, though he's not really thinking about any of the Striders right now] But you kind of could be a hero, you know? Like, you got that shit in you to be that.

[candycrabapple]

He's just as much as a smug bell-end as the rest of them.

I know I have more than a few amazing qualities, but hero isn't not going to be one of them, don't be stupid.

[mo_cara]

Yeah, but he ain't as much of a prick about it. [closing his eyes] I know I got a lot of holes all in my pan, but that don't mean I don't know you can do some great motherfuckin' shit, if you have to. It's all down to circumstance. Some people, when shit goes down, they break and run, or they flip, do the nasty to a lot of people what ain't deserving it. And some people, they get scared, but they stand up anyway, do what they got to be doing. Me, I'm one of those first motherfuckers. You ain't, though. You're that other kind.

[Gamzee's tone is melancholy - he believes this whole heartedly, but he's not feeling so great right now, and he's not invested in convincing Karkat. He just knows it's true, and he says it with a simple matter-of-factness that's hard to argue with.]

[candycrabapple]

[Karkat sighs, feeling a little deflated that with Gamzee saying this like he's telling his friend that the sun rises and sets, and the moon has phases, Karkat can't exactly argue any of it.]

Okay, sure. I'm the most fantastic person on the planet and everyone should be lining up to sing my praises and erect statues. But until that shit actually starts happening. Do you want me to get you a drink? Or we could go outside, because you could probably do with fresh air to filter through the holes in that Swiss cheese pan.

[mo_cara]

[If he were in a better mood, Gamzee would totally be sniggering at that 'erect statues' line. Instead, he just gives Karkat a surprised look.] Really? You'd do that for a brother? I thought you weren't liking it when I was getting krunk.

[candycrabapple]

[He sighs.]

I meant water, or pumpkin juice, you louse. Do you really think this is the kind of time to go at let yourself get shitfaced? Because it sounds incredibly pointless and moronic to me.

[If pushed he will let it happen, but only because any Gamzee is better than a depressed Gamzee. And it kills Karkat to see him like this.]

[mo_cara]

It's the best time. [quietly] 'Cause I ain't liking feeling this way much at all. It's even worse than when I thought there weren't nobody never going to like me like that, 'cause now I found the one motherfucker who might, and he has to go. And maybe if my pan's all melty and liquid, I don't have to be thinking on it.