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tHESE DREAMS ARE, uH, gETTING RIDICULOUS,
i WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING LIKE THAT,
nOT WITH THEM, i MEAN, i THINK ANYWAY,
aND WHY IS IT HAPPENING IN THE, sHACK OF ALL PLACES,
i DON'T, uH, gET IT AT ALL,
aND i REALLY WISH i WOULD STOP WAKING UP WET, TOO,
iT'S, sUCH A MESS, aND i HAVE TO DO WAY MORE LAUNDRY THAN i USED TO,
bUT i DON'T CARE ABOUT THAT,
oKAY ACTUALLY i DO CARE ABOUT THAT,
mUM KEEPS ASKING ME WHY i HAVE SO MANY DIRTY PANTS,
iT'S A LITTLE EMBARASSING ACTUALLY,,,
bUT MOSTLY i JUST WISH i KNEW WHY, tHIS IS HAPPENING,
kARKAT AND GAMZEE ARE, uH, jUST MY FRIENDS,
i DON'T LIKE THEM LIKE THAT,
i'M NOT GAY,
sERIOUSLY, sO, bRAIN, pLEASE STOP TRYING TO CONFUSE ME,
iT WOULD BE REALLY NICE OF YOU,
i HAVE TOO MUCH TO DEAL WITH, i DON'T NEED TO BE CONFUSED, tOO,
i THINK i'LL JUST GO BACK TO SLEEP, aFTER CHANGING PANTS, i GUESS,
wRITING ALL THIS MADE ME FEEL BETTER,
kEEPING THIS DREAM JOURNAL WAS A GOOD IDEA,
i, uH, nEED TO HAVE THOSE MORE OFTEN,
aNYWAY, gOOD NIGHT, jOURNAL,

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,,, i DIDN'T THINK SO,
nOT JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE, dATING DAVE, eITHER,
i THINK IT'S BECAUSE, i'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH,
nOT LIKE KARKAT, oR EVEN DAVE, i GUESS,

,,,i DON'T KNOW, wHY i EVEN TOLD YOU, aCTUALLY,
bECAUSE,
i KNEW YOU DIDN'T, aND WOULDN'T,
i WAS TRYING TO, uH, gET OVER IT,
tHIS WAS STUPID, i'M SORRY,

aND, nO,
iT'S NOT OKAY,
i MEAN, iT IS FOR OTHER PEOPLE, bUT,
nOT ME,
bUT IT DOESN'T MATTER BECAUSE,
i DON'T,

no dont say things like that!
any boy or girl would be lucky to have someone as sweet and caring as you in their lives
and you are not stupid at all!
i should be the one saying sorry, i have been a very shitty friend
i didnt even see what was going on with you or that you were feeling sad
too busy thinking about...him, i guess

tavros i want you to be happy
that is all i ever really want from my friends

uHH, nO, jADE,
pLEASE DON'T SAY THAT,
iT'S NOT YOUR FAULT AND, yOU WEREN'T A SHITTY FRIEND,
iT REALLY WAS, uM, mY FAULT,
i DIDN'T TELL YOU OR, aNYTHING LIKE THAT, sO IT'S NOT LIKE YOU COULD'VE KNOWN,
aLSO PLEASE DON'T, uH, sAY THINGS LIKE THE FIRST THING YOU SAID,
uM, i'M STILL STRAIGHT SO, bOYS AREN'T GOING TO HAVE ME, iN THEIR LIVES,
i'M NOT GAY, i'M STRAIGHT,
aND, sAYING THINGS LIKE THAT ONLY MAKES ME MORE CONFUSED,
bECAUSE, i'M STILL TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THESE DREAMS,

,,,tHANKS JADE, tHAT'S REALLY, uH, nICE OF YOU,

uMMM, bUT ON THAT SUBJECT, dO YOU MIND IF i ASK A QUESTION,
eVEN THOUGH MAYBE IT'S NONE OF MY BUSINESS,

i just reeeally want you to know how loved you are, sorry :)

okay tav, what is your question?

tHANKS, aGAIN,
i'M JUST STILL, uH,
i DON'T KNOW, bUT IT KIND OF GIVES ME A HEADACHE WHENEVER i THINK ABOUT IT,

aNYWAY, uM,
mY QUESTION IS,,,
iF, yOU WANT ALL YOUR FRIENDS TO, bE HAPPY,
tHEN, uH, wHY DID YOU PUNCH KARKAT, iN THE FACE,
uM,,,
eSPECIALLY WHEN, hE WAS JUST TRYING TO HELP ME, tOO,

because i said to him that it would have been better for us to go see you
and have dave apologise when you were all right again
but he did not listen to me, he just wanted to keep hurting my friend
and he told me to go date dave if i liked him so much
so why should i care about someone that obviously does not care about me?

oH,,,

jADE, uM,

i'M REALLY, rEALLY SORRY,
i DIDN'T KNOW HE, uM, sAID THAT,
hE, kIND OF MADE IT SOUND LIKE YOUR FAULT,
sO THAT'S WHY i ASKED, bECAUSE,
wHAT YOU SAID, uH, wAS A LITTLE CONTRADICTORY,
bUT, nOW i SEE THAT IT WAS HIS FAULT, i THINK,

uHHH, bUT,
mAYBE YOU SHOULD TALK TO HIM,
aND, tELL HIM HOW YOU FEEL,
bECAUSE, i'M PRETTY SURE THAT HE DIDN'T MEAN IT,
kARKAT IS JUST, uM,
kARKAT,,,
aND YOU KNOW HOW HE IS, aND STUFF,

who says he will even listen to me? :\
karkat is not the best at actually listening to people
especially when it comes to looking at both sides of a conflict
tavros, do we have to talk about karkat?
i am
i still

i do not want to talk about him

i am sorry about what dave said though
i do not think he expected it to hurt you so much!
please do not think badly of him
he will come around

uH, i THINK HE LISTENS MORE THAN, aNYONE REALIZES,
aND HE DEFINITELY, wOULDN'T WANT TO HAVE ACTUALLY HURT, uH, yOUR FEELINGS,

bUT, wE DON'T HAVE TO TALK ABOUT IT,
i'M SORRY FOR, bRINGING IT UP,
aND i HOPE YOU'RE NOT MAD AT ME FOR IT,

uHHH,
i DON'T KNOW ABOUT THAT,
i THINK HE MEANT TO HURT ME,
iT SEEMED, pRETTY OBVIOUS,
hE, uH, pICKED THE ONE THING THAT REALLY WOULD,

no tavros i could never be mad at you
even if you are talking about someone that hurt me
i know i hurt karkat too...
i just do not think he would want to talk to me
he did not even want to date me

well yes, that is the point of a rap battle
but i do not think he realised how strongly it would have affected you is all!
we do not have to talk about him either, though
i am sorry for bringing that up

i know it bothers you so
but you must remember
you are the coolest bro
and totally brought the sickest ember!

:)

,,,

oH MY GOSH,

tHAT'S, uH,

wOW, uM,

i REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EVEN SAY,
bECAUSE, tHAT IS THE NICEST THING,
aNYONE'S EVER SAID,

well!
people should say more nice things!
because you reeeeally did great at the rap battle :o
i did not know you could throw down such sweet rhymes!!!

[And Tavros is internally keysmashing because she liked his rapping!!! That is not something he expected. And It makes him feel better, even though they're just friends.

And he's actually... surprisingly okay with that. He'd been getting over it for a while, slowly. And. Hearing from Jade that it wasn't going to happen actually... helped him move on, in a weird way. It was disappointing, yes, but it also felt like a weight was lifted off of him.

Confusing teenage feelings.]

wOW, uH,
rEALLY, bECAUSE, i DIDN'T THINK ANYONE LIKED IT,
i MEAN, i THOUGHT THEY LIKED DAVE'S BETTER,
iT MEANS SO MUCH THAT YOU THINK SO AND,
hAS ACTUALLY CHEERED ME UP A LOT,
wHICH IS A BIG ACCOMPLISHMENT BECAUSE,
i WAS, uH, fEELING REALLY CRAPPY,

[Though in a way, he still is... mainly because now he's focusing so much on everything else, which translated to his dreams. And the fact everyone... knew about them, oh god. That fact was starting to sink in.

Focus on Jade's compliments!!! Hee.]

dave is a rhyming master
that much is true
but despite that unholy disaster
i think the victor was really you!

hehehe i am sorry, i cant stop rhyming

yOU'RE REALLY GOOD AT THAT,
sO DON'T, uH, aPOLOGIZE,

,,, wE SHOULD RAP TOGETHER, oNE DAY,

oH AND, tHANKS AGAIN,,, hEHE, }:)

oh gosh yes we should!!!

just for fun, though, not a battle :)

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