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[givesyouaboner]

_{[Dirk is probably more buttmad than he should be. He's calmed down several times, but then the moment he checks the journals again, he just goes right back to raging. Clearly this would be a sign to stay off them. But he's an eleven year old throwing a perpetual tantrum. Logical reason doesn't work in this instance.]}

I'm just noping so hard right now.
Noping into infinity.
On a skateboard. Ollieing into the sun. Disintegrating into a billion and one pieces.
This might be the last time anyone hears from me. Consider it be death by everything is stupid.

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[rule_britannia]

Put it this way.

If the situation had been reversed and you had stepped and done what he did, would it be his fault?

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[givesyouaboner]

No, it would've been mine. But that's different.

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[rule_britannia]

No it isn't.

You just seem to have some peculiar need to take the blame for things that aren't your fault.

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[givesyouaboner]

I don't blame myself for things that aren't my fault in one way or another.

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[rule_britannia]

But you're clearly holding yourself to different standards than everyone else.

Your cousin steps in of his own volition to take the heat off you and it's your fault.
If you were stepping in to take heat off him, it's also your fault.

Are you not seeing the disparity here?

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[givesyouaboner]

That's just how it is. A lot of things are my fault.
I have to hold myself to a higher standard because I'm the one responsible for things that happen in my life.

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[rule_britannia]

Being responsible for your own life is a grand thing to be aware of.

But only if you also acknowledge that other people are responsible for theirs.

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[givesyouaboner]

That shouldn't be the case when it's involving me.

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[rule_britannia]

No? You're a special case, are you? The one to whom all blame must be ascribed?

Think about what you're saying for a moment.

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[givesyouaboner]

It makes a lot of sense. A lot of things wouldn't have happened if I weren't involved. Which implies I am at least responsible to some degree.

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[rule_britannia]

But that can be said of anyone.

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[givesyouaboner]

Sometimes the scenarios I've run through my head turn out to be better if I wasn't factored into the equation.

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[rule_britannia]

With the attitude you have towards yourself, that doesn't surprise me in the least.

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[givesyouaboner]

It can't really be helped.