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[givesyouaboner]

Oh my god I have never been so bored in my life.
There is nothing to do and I've read all my books again. I can't even go to the library right now.
I'd hit up the Gutenberg Project but I did that last night and reading Kafka didn't end well.

_{[What does it say about a kid who has no problem watching the Human Centipede but the Metamorphosis gives him nightmares?]}

I'm five seconds away from reading Excel Saga-Inuyasha crossover fanfiction, which means I'm about to be ass deep in stupid shit.
It's going to happen and no one will ever hear from me again. Dirk Strider will cease to exist and amalgamate with aforementioned stupid shit because I don't have Life Alert so I can't call anyone to help me when I've fallen and can't get up.







Also, Roxy seems to be sleeping more. This is solidifying my concerns that she is in fact bleeding to death.
_{[This actually may or may not be the case. What it boils down to is he is sleeping even less, so his perception on this is skewed.]}

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[patrioticspells]

Why are you visiting professors if you don't want to be there?

Guests can make the place even more crowded.

[givesyouaboner]

Apparently I need to be babysat.

Do you have a big family?

[patrioticspells]

Being babysat isn't all that bad.

Ah, no. I live in an orphanage.

[givesyouaboner]

I used to take care of myself all the time. I don't see why this time has to be different.

Oh. Your parents are dead too?

[patrioticspells]

They could be more concerned about you.

[There's a few hesitant marks.]

Yeah. They've been dead for a while. I'm sorry you lost yours.

[givesyouaboner]

There isn't any reason to.





It's fine. It can't be helped. Besides, it's only one that matters. I don't even remember my mother.

_{[Is this a bit deflective? Maybe.]}

[patrioticspells]

Adults tend to worry over everything.


I don't remember much of either of them. It's been a while.

[givesyouaboner]

Needless worry is a stupid thing.






Is that when it stops hurting? Or does it hurt more that way?

[patrioticspells]

Are you sure it's so needless?


It hurts either way. It doesn't matter if it's more or less, because the pain is still there. If that makes sense.

[givesyouaboner]

Yes. I'm positive. I'm self-sufficient.

Yeah. It does.





I figured it wouldn't be that easy.

[patrioticspells]

You're a kid.

Nothing about loss is easy. You'll get better, though.

[givesyouaboner]

I grew up a long time ago.

How certain are you of this?

[patrioticspells]

You're still too young for a job. You can't support yourself without one. Not to mention it's okay to be a kid.

Very certain.

[givesyouaboner]

Dad was loaded from his movies. I wouldn't need to work.
I'd rather by treated at my maturity level rather than my age.

How many years does that take?

[patrioticspells]

I see. That's lucky, then.

It varies person to person. Nobody is the same as anyone else.

[givesyouaboner]

I guess so.

Is it bad that I want it to stop hurting? I mean.
I miss him and I always will.
But I just...