[06]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

sO, uH,
eASTER BREAK WASN'T A TOTAL,
hORRIBLE AND HUMILIATING EXPERIENCE,
bECAUSE, sOMETHING GOOD DEFINITELY CAME FROM IT,
aLSO SOMETHING THAT TOOK A LOT OF PROCESSING,
bECAUSE, uH, iT WAS A HUGE SURPRISE,
aND ONE THAT, i WASN'T EXPECTING AT ALL,
bUUUT, iT TURNS OUT i AM, nOT QUITE SO MUCH OF AN ONLY CHILD,
aS WAS PREVIOUSLY, tHOUGHT,
wHICH IS TO SAY, i HAVE A BROTHER,
iSN'T THAT REALLY EXCITING,
i WAS REALLY SURPRISED AT FIRST,
bUT NOW, i THINK IT'S REALLY COOL,
aND, tHE BEST PART IS HE WORKS HERE,
aS THE FLYING TEACHER,
uHHH, tHE ONE NOT, rELATED TO A CERTAIN SUPPOSEDLY COOL GUY,
wHO WEARS SHADES,
aND LIKES TO, uH, mAKE FUN OF FAIRIES,
yEEEAH, hE'S THE OTHER, aCTUAL COOL ONE,

[Filtered to Kanaya; hackable by Equius]

hEYYY, uH,
i HAVE A REQUEST,
aND, iT MIGHT SOUNDS KIND OF, rANDOM AND STRANGE,
bUT i PROMISE THAT IT'S FOR A GOOD CAUSE,
a REALLY, gOOD CAUSE,
i NEED YOU TO MAKE ME A DRESS,
uHH, wELL,
iT'S NOT FOR ME, eXACTLY,
bUT ANYWAY, dO YOU THINK THAT, mAYBE YOU COULD DO THIS FOR ME,
i WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE IT,
tHE ONLY THING IS THAT, iT HAS TO BE PRETTY,
uHHH, pRETTY ENOUGH FOR A PRINCESS,
iF THAT IS A THING YOU CAN DO,
wHICH, i THINK YOU CAN, bECAUSE YOU'RE GOOD AT BEING PRETTY,
oHHH, aND MAYBE YOU COULD MAKE ME, a PAIR OF WINGS,
tO ATTACH TO MY PETER PAN COSTUME,
sO i CAN BE A FAIRY, }:)

Comments

[centaurstestes]

D --> Is that why you were hesitant to a% him about the forest

D --> Also, it needs to be b100

[dou8letrou8le]

Do you feel special now?

[Private]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

yES,
i KIND OF FELT AWKWARD,
aND THAT MAYBE, hE MIGHT QUESTION ME MORE,
oR SOMETHING,
i DON'T KNOW, hOW BROTHERS WORK,

oH BUT, dON'T PRINCESSES WEAR PINK,


wAIT, dIDN'T i MAKE THAT PART PRIVATE,

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

mAYBE A LITTLE,
uH, wHY,
sHOULD i NOT,

[Private]

[centaurstestes]

D --> Maybe
D --> But I wear b100

D --> I could not say
D --> Were I your elder brother, I would certainly question you
D --> I am not your elder brother, and I am already questioning you
D --> Although that is more about your eagerness to imagine me as a princess than about the forest

[dou8letrou8le]

No.
You shouldn't.

[Private]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

i,
tHINK THAT FOR THIS, mAYBE YOU SHOULD CONSIDER WEARING PINK,
uHH, iF YOU DON'T MIND, mE SAYING SO,
bECAUSE, yOU NEED TO, fOR THE UNICORNS,
sO WE DON'T SCARE THEM OFF,
bUT i GUESS IF YOU, iNSIST, tHEN i CAN TELL KANAYA TO MAKE IT BLOO,
i MEAN, bLUE, wOOPS,

mY EAGERNESS IS NOT TO IMAGINE YOU AS A PRINCESS,
i'M JUST EAGER ABOUT UNICORNS,
aND, tHIS IS A GOOD WAY TO SEE THEM,
wHICH i GUESS MAKES ME EAGER, uH, tO SEE YOU AS A PRINCESS,
bUT, iT'S ONLY COINCIDENTAL,

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

oKAY, wELL,
wHAT SHOULD i FEEL, tHEN,
bECAUSE i'M NOT EXACTLY SURE WHAT AN APPROPRIATE ALTERNATIVE IS,
wHAT'S WRONG WITH, fEELING SPECIAL ABOUT IT,
hE'S REALLY COOL,

[Private]

[centaurstestes]

D --> Actually, b100 would be a better color to wear when approaching a unicorn
D --> Horses are red-green colorblind, meaning they see the world through a spectrum of b100 and yellow
D --> The color pink would likely be seen as a shade of gray
D --> B100, on the other hand, would appear crystal clear

D --> This was all your idea
D --> What do you mean it's coincidental

[mo_cara]

hOlY mOtHeRfUcKiN sHiTfIrE aNd BrImStOnE!
iS tHaT tHe DuDe WhAt LoOkS lIkE aN iNdIaN?
cOnGrAtUmOtHeRfUcKiNlAtIoNs, BrO!!!

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

yEAH, aCTUALLY THAT'S EXACTLY WHO i MEAN,
tHOUGH i GUESS, iT WAS OBVIOUS SINCE HE'S THE ONLY ONE,
oTHER THAN PROFESSOR STRIDER, bUT,
yEAH,
uH, sORRY FOR NOT TELLING YOU SOONER,
iT WAS JUST, a LOT TO HANDLE, aND,
i DIDN'T WANT TO SAY ANYTHING BEFORE i WAS READY,

aLSO, tHANKS,
iT'S REALLY AWESOME, aND, i AM SO EXCITED TO HAVE A BROTHER,
bESIDES YOU, i MEAN,
sINCE WE'RE BROS,
bUT, i MEAN, tHIS IS DIFFERENT, i THINK,

[selfhatred]

AT LEAST YOU'RE NOT RELATED TO STRIDER.

[Private]

Uh, so...I gotta apologize.
I was being dumb, and I was kind of mad at myself and took it out on you, which isn't cool.
But it wasn't cool that I lied in the first place, to you or Gamzee.
I'm just confused, man.
So...I'm sorry.

1/3 [Private]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

uHH, hAH, yEAH THAT'S DEFINITELY A THING THAT'S G

[...Iiiiinkblots.]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

karkat?

[Private]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

cAN WE,
pLEASE TALK FOR REAL, sOMEWHERE,
iF THAT'S OKAY,

[Private]

[selfhatred]

Uh...sure.
I'm in the library.

[Private] > Action

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

i'LL, bE THERE IN A LITTLE BIT,

[He's nervous... so nervous, because he didn't expect this at all. It had been pointed out how hypocritical he was, and on further examination, he'd realized that was true. And he'd felt awful about it, and meant to apologize to Karkat. Whenever he could work up the courage to do so.

He was so afraid that Karkat hated him for it. But he'd been scared, for so many different reasons, and it had made him try and lie too. And then blame Karkat for it, when he was just as much in the wrong too. But Karkat... had caught him completely off guard. He didn't know what to even say when he arrived in the library.

And even though he took his time, he still didn't know what to say when he arrived. All too soon, Karkat was in front of him, but his arms felt like jelly, and it took so much effort to close the distance between him and the table that Karkat was sitting at.]

Uhh... Hey.

[Private]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

i DIDN'T THINK OF THAT,
sO, i GUESS YOU'LL HAVE TO WEAR BLUE,
mY BAD,

uHH, iT'S COINCIDENTAL THAT, i WOULD BE EAGER TO SEE YOU IN A DRESS,
wHEN REALLY i'M ONLY EXCITED TO SEE THE UNICORNS,
aND ALSO, yOU WANTED ME TO THINK OF YOU AS A PRINCESS,
sO, tHIS ISN'T REALLY, aLL MY IDEA,
yOU STARTED IT, bY SUGGESTING IT,

[Private]

[centaurstestes]

[You can't see it, but he's being all smug because he gets to wear what he wants.]

D --> It's called hyperbole and metaphor, Nitram
D --> I suggested it as an e%ample to show just how much I don't care about your opinion
D --> A boy being viewed as a princess is generally a negative thing, after all
D --> So I was saying that I do not care if you think I am a princess because I do not need your approval to validate my superiority

Action

[selfhatred]

[Karkat had known he'd been in the wrong for a good long while. He didn't even know why he'd lied in the first place, just that it seemed like the right thing to do. Of course, even what seems like the right thing to do at the time doesn't always mean it was. It just made him hate himself even more, which made the confusion worse.

When he saw Tavros's entry he didn't know how to breach the subject. He didn't even know how to make up for things like this. It had been easy with his uncle after parent's day, but this was different. Then he decided to bite the bullet.

He tapped his quill feather-up against his notebook, leaning his head on his hand as he waited for Tavros, stomach churning with nerves. What if Tavros was just coming here to say that they were never going to be friends again and his apology was useless? His head shot up when he heard the Hufflepuff's voice, nearly knocking over his ink as his hand moved. He flushed a little before ducking his head down, looking away.]

...Hey.

[mo_cara]

NaH, tHiS iS jUsT tHe MoThErFuCkIn BiTcHtItTiEsT!
cOuLdN't HaPpEn To A nIcEr BlOkE.
aNd It'S nO wOrRiEs, YoU dOn'T nEeD tO tElL mE nOtHiNg.
I'm JuSt HaPpY tO sEe My BrO gOt HiS fInE mOtHeRfUcKiN sElF a ReAl BrO. ;o)

[And if he's maybe a little bit jealous? No need to say a damn thing about that.]

[Private]

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

yOU'RE RIGHT,
uH, i DIDN'T REALIZE THAT'S WHAT YOU MEANT, aT ALL,
sO, uH,
sHOULD WE JUST, nOT DO THIS,
oR, sOMETHING,
i'M CONFUSED AS TO, wHAT YOU WANT,

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

uH, yEAH, iT IS PRETTY, uH, bITCHTITTY,
bUT EVEN THOUGH HE'S MY REAL BRO,
dOESN'T MEAN YOU'RE NOT ALSO, mY REAL BRO,
sO, dON'T BE SILLY,
yOU'RE BOTH REAL,

[Private]

[centaurstestes]

D --> Why would you think that I wanted you to think that I am a princess
D --> Didn't it occur to you at all that something might be off when I protested
D --> Some of your ideas

D --> I want to see the unicorns

Action

[i_bullieve_i_can_fly]

[Tavros stared down at the floor nervously, thumbs twiddling in his lap. He didn't know what to say, or do, and he was afraid to actually look at Karkat. He swallowed against his dry mouth, wishing he had some water or something. Or a potion to help calm his nerves. Definitely needed that. Ugh, why was apologizing so hard? Especially when Karkat had already done it first. So... obviously things had to turn out good, right?

But no, that didn't make it any easier. He was scared and awkward for a lot of reasons. He hadn't really been around Karkat since before his journal incident. Since before he started having those dreams. The ones he was still having. The ones he tried not to think about, but couldn't prevent himself from doing so. Ugh, brain! Stop!]

I-I was a hypocrite! [It kind of came out like word vomit, the awkward silence reaching such a high level of tense that he just sort of exploded.]